My parents are in Japan. They left 2 weeks ago. We went up to Utah to see them one more time at the MTC. Bob and Danny had to stay for Danny's basketball game, but the rest of us went up Friday morning. We ate at the creamery and then picked them up at 3:30. We spent the afternoon at BYU and went to the Museum of Art, bowling, food court and then to the Men's Volleyball game. We had a great time with them. We stayed with Wendy's family. And we ended up getting to stay until Sunday because Saturday they got a foot of snow. It was such good timing for the kids to get to wake up to snow and play in it all day long. Then we came home on Sunday after Sacrament meeting. It was especially lucky because we are having an extremely warm winter and there isn't any snow to go play in at Mt. Charleston.
I started my Holistic Health Coach certification. It's been good. It doesn't take a ton of time and it's been good to get to talk with other like-minded people. And I've started getting more into essential oils since I have to buy them every month as part of the program and that's been fun. I've also been working on healing my hip and eyes. I talked with Cynthia about my issues and she talked about how emotions are usually at the root of chronic problems. So I've been working on that and taking some herbs she recommended and I really think it's going to heal. I want to be able to hike Mt. Charleston with Rachel this year because she's a 4th year. And I want to be able to run a little bit for exercise. I'm working on strengthening and stretching right now and hope to start easing into running in a week or two. I also talked to her about my eyes. She thought that was the bigger issue and it has to do with me not spiritually seeing because I was afraid or maybe the adversary is blocking me in some way. So I've really been working on that and using some herbs in my eyes. I'm feeling like I'm going in the right direction and have hope that it's going to work.
I did Dr. Christopher's Candida cleanse in January. I cut out all dairy, meat, sugar, fruit and grain. I had to get really creative about what I ate and Stevia became one of my best friends. But I feel like it helped. My skin definitely looks clearer and brighter, which was a nice side effect. I'm finishing the extended herbal cleanse now. I'm hopeful that as I continue what I'm doing the effects of the epstein-barr will go away. My sleeping and breathing are probably 50% better. And I'm definitely better at listening and looking for answers.
I'm liking my primary class. I teach the 10 and 11 year olds in primary. I wish I got to go to RS so I could get to know people, but it'll happen eventually. Bob and I are taking another self-reliance class. We took the personal finance one in the fall and loved it. I felt like we got a lot of direction and learning how to apply the gospel to our finances. Toward the end of that class we felt like we should combine our freelancing skills together to create some kind of business and that it would be another avenue for the Lord to be able to bless us. We're not really sure what that business will look like, but we are starting the self reliance class for Starting and Growing your business tonight to try to figure it out. They are a big commitment of time, but we get so much more out of these classes.
Sunday, February 4, 2018
Sunday, January 14, 2018
January 14, 2018
We had a great Christmas Break. We celebrated Christmas at home. Christmas Eve was a Sunday, so we went to church for 1 hour, we had our traditional Chinese food for dinner, this time from Costco. We acted out the Nativity. And this year the Sisters invited us to go caroling to some less-actives. It was great. And then we came home and opened secret siblings gifts.
Christmas morning started at 6:30. We had a great time opening presents. Bob was in charge of Christmas day food so he made pancakes for breakfast and ham and funeral potatoes for dinner. We played with toys and did puzzles and had a nice lazy Christmas. We also did our traditional family testimony meeting.
The day after Christmas, Danny had a basketball tournament so we stayed in town for 2 days for that and then we left to go to Visalia, where everyone was there because grandma and grandpa are leaving on their mission. We had a great time with everyone. We went shopping, watched movies, played games, went bowling and to a trampoline place. We stayed until New Years' Day. All 5 kids stayed up until midnight on New Year's Eve.
We came back after New Years' so Bob could work and Danny could go to practice. It was also nice to have some lazy time, time with friends and time to work on Kwanzaa. We went out to dinner to celebrate Kwanzaa this year.
Now we're a week back into school. Danny ended with a 3.7 gpa so he does qualify to be able to drive so he is anxiously looking forward to that.
For Thanksgiving we were invited to go to the Salmon's Mexico beach house again. Danny had practice and Bob had to work so they stayed home while the kids and I drove down on Saturday after school got out. We stayed until Wednesday when we drove up to Ryan's house and met Bob and Danny there. We had fabulous weather in Mexico. It was even better than when we went during the summer a few years ago. The kids all had a great time swimming (except for Seth) and playing games at night. We went to the Mexican market one day. We went to church, which was a great experience.
The only disappointing thing about our trip was that Seth got sick. About the time we crossed the border on our way there, Seth started saying his throat hurt. He was sick with a fever and cough for the whole trip. He got a little bit of a red rash on his trunk, but I just thought it was from the fever. He also had his cast on, so he wouldn't have been able to get in the ocean anyway. He was still sick when we went to Ryan's house and on Friday Seth's finger tips started to peel. That was too much, we decided he needed to go home to see a doctor and get better. He had scarlett fever. That turned out to be a horrific illness. He was put on antibiotics and hydrocortizone to help the skin. Over the next 2 weeks his entire body peeled, like a sunburn, but deep. Skin fell off everywhere and his bed looked like it had snowed. But then it peeled so deep that his skin was red and raw. We were constantly working to make him comfortable. He needed lotion to hydrate the skin, but it stung. So we would lotion, then ice while we waiting for the stinging to stop. His hands were so dry and cracked and fragile that we would lotion at night and then use press n seal to wrap his hands all night. His scalp peeled and looked like dandruff. And even his fingernails were damaged. So now a month and a half later, his nails are growing out and there is a line where the nails are fragile and peeling. He seems fine now and it was awesome that he didn't give it to anyone who stayed at the beach house with us or anyone who was at Ryan's, he was sick around a lot of people. But that was one huge ordeal.
I'm helping with basketball right now. I also helped with Rachel's volleyball team, I was the team mom. Now I'm helping the HS basketball coach like I did last year. And I was helping middle school basketball too. Then a few weeks into the season, they fired their MS athletic director and asked me to help in that roll until they could hire someone. I did it for about a month and I spent a lot of hours organizing and coordinating. I enjoy being involved at the school, but that one was a little too big of a job so I'm glad I don't have to do that one anymore.
Christmas morning started at 6:30. We had a great time opening presents. Bob was in charge of Christmas day food so he made pancakes for breakfast and ham and funeral potatoes for dinner. We played with toys and did puzzles and had a nice lazy Christmas. We also did our traditional family testimony meeting.
The day after Christmas, Danny had a basketball tournament so we stayed in town for 2 days for that and then we left to go to Visalia, where everyone was there because grandma and grandpa are leaving on their mission. We had a great time with everyone. We went shopping, watched movies, played games, went bowling and to a trampoline place. We stayed until New Years' Day. All 5 kids stayed up until midnight on New Year's Eve.
We came back after New Years' so Bob could work and Danny could go to practice. It was also nice to have some lazy time, time with friends and time to work on Kwanzaa. We went out to dinner to celebrate Kwanzaa this year.
Now we're a week back into school. Danny ended with a 3.7 gpa so he does qualify to be able to drive so he is anxiously looking forward to that.
For Thanksgiving we were invited to go to the Salmon's Mexico beach house again. Danny had practice and Bob had to work so they stayed home while the kids and I drove down on Saturday after school got out. We stayed until Wednesday when we drove up to Ryan's house and met Bob and Danny there. We had fabulous weather in Mexico. It was even better than when we went during the summer a few years ago. The kids all had a great time swimming (except for Seth) and playing games at night. We went to the Mexican market one day. We went to church, which was a great experience.
The only disappointing thing about our trip was that Seth got sick. About the time we crossed the border on our way there, Seth started saying his throat hurt. He was sick with a fever and cough for the whole trip. He got a little bit of a red rash on his trunk, but I just thought it was from the fever. He also had his cast on, so he wouldn't have been able to get in the ocean anyway. He was still sick when we went to Ryan's house and on Friday Seth's finger tips started to peel. That was too much, we decided he needed to go home to see a doctor and get better. He had scarlett fever. That turned out to be a horrific illness. He was put on antibiotics and hydrocortizone to help the skin. Over the next 2 weeks his entire body peeled, like a sunburn, but deep. Skin fell off everywhere and his bed looked like it had snowed. But then it peeled so deep that his skin was red and raw. We were constantly working to make him comfortable. He needed lotion to hydrate the skin, but it stung. So we would lotion, then ice while we waiting for the stinging to stop. His hands were so dry and cracked and fragile that we would lotion at night and then use press n seal to wrap his hands all night. His scalp peeled and looked like dandruff. And even his fingernails were damaged. So now a month and a half later, his nails are growing out and there is a line where the nails are fragile and peeling. He seems fine now and it was awesome that he didn't give it to anyone who stayed at the beach house with us or anyone who was at Ryan's, he was sick around a lot of people. But that was one huge ordeal.
I'm helping with basketball right now. I also helped with Rachel's volleyball team, I was the team mom. Now I'm helping the HS basketball coach like I did last year. And I was helping middle school basketball too. Then a few weeks into the season, they fired their MS athletic director and asked me to help in that roll until they could hire someone. I did it for about a month and I spent a lot of hours organizing and coordinating. I enjoy being involved at the school, but that one was a little too big of a job so I'm glad I don't have to do that one anymore.
Monday, January 8, 2018
January 8, 2018
temple what to do for viruses- mind as biomachine, meditate on Savior's love.
At the functional doctor who found my viruses, they have a treatment called the biomachine that is 2 metal rods you hold that she puts of different frequencies that the viruses are supposed to not like. I went 6 times. I wasn't sure if it was helping, but when I stopped things got worse so it must have been helping a little. I went to the temple to try to figure out what course I should follow to heal my symptoms-Cynthia's program or the biomachine. In the celestial room I felt impressed to try meditating to access the Lord's power with my mind. That must be a higher frequency than my own thoughts. So I tried it at home. The first time it was just regular meditating. The second time the Spirit taught me what he meant. I felt an outpouring of the Savior's love. Kind of like the warm, swelling feeling with an answer to prayer, but it just kept going. Tears flowed from my eyes because it was stronger than my body. It has been the most amazing gift. It probably is also healing things in my body, but it is just such an enormous blessing for my spirit and mind that even if it isn't healing anything, I still do it every day. I feel like I can get closer to the veil and His love is tangible. I still do it pretty much every day and make sure I have a tissue because I still cry most times.
switch flipped with 7 allergens, will be similar when I figure out health.
I read a book by a woman ( can't remember her name) who talked about the 7 common allergens and also some of the Mark Hyman and suggested going off those allergens for 3 weeks. Prior to that I had been having some really strong food cravings, which was frustrating. Then within a day or 2 of this diet my cravings were gone, like a flip was switched. I was praying about some of my current symptoms and how frustrating they are and that, while I can contain some symptoms by being super dilligent, there are too many and I can't work on them all at the same time. I had this impression come that when I finally found the solution I'm looking for that it will be able to control my issues like when I went off the allergens, like a flip. I'm still looking forward to that.
consequences of lack of sleep taken away, not lack of sleep.
When I was really struggling to sleep I would pray that he would just help me sleep. When I didn't get enough sleep it was hard to be kind and patient and to have energy to get everything done and my eyes usually hurt. One night I realized that maybe I was praying for the wrong thing. I prayed that whatever happened at night that the next day would be ok. And that next day, even though I got little sleep, I didn't have the usual problems from lack of sleep.
I read a book by a woman ( can't remember her name) who talked about the 7 common allergens and also some of the Mark Hyman and suggested going off those allergens for 3 weeks. Prior to that I had been having some really strong food cravings, which was frustrating. Then within a day or 2 of this diet my cravings were gone, like a flip was switched. I was praying about some of my current symptoms and how frustrating they are and that, while I can contain some symptoms by being super dilligent, there are too many and I can't work on them all at the same time. I had this impression come that when I finally found the solution I'm looking for that it will be able to control my issues like when I went off the allergens, like a flip. I'm still looking forward to that.
consequences of lack of sleep taken away, not lack of sleep.
When I was really struggling to sleep I would pray that he would just help me sleep. When I didn't get enough sleep it was hard to be kind and patient and to have energy to get everything done and my eyes usually hurt. One night I realized that maybe I was praying for the wrong thing. I prayed that whatever happened at night that the next day would be ok. And that next day, even though I got little sleep, I didn't have the usual problems from lack of sleep.
Sunday, November 26, 2017
November 26, 2017
I've been having wierd symptoms for the past couple of years. I have the hand tingling/numb/weak issues at night. Breathing problems. My hair falls out enough that I have a ton of baby hairs once or twice a year. I've had a lot of wierd anxiety where I worry about things more than I used to, or my body acts like it's really worried even though my mind doesn't really feel that worried. I don't sleep well. It's hard to go to sleep, I wake up for hours at a time, I wake up way too early, I almost never get 8 hours of sleep. They've all gotten to where they really disrupt my life. I've been actively working on things since last summer (2015). Well, I worked on it before by going to doctors for my hands and and trying other things. But I feel like I actually started on the correct path last summer when I started going to see Valerie. She helped me see a few false beliefs/skewed beliefs that I didn't realize were off, but fixing them brought a lot of peace. One example was that I didn't think I was ever really doing my best because I messed up. I knew better so I thought I should do better. I didn't take the atonement into account or that this life is a process and the Lord knew I'd be right here on my path right now and He's ok with that. So I need to be ok with it too. She has a great way of descibing the gospel and the plan and was very helpful in helping me see things that I didn't even know were wrong in my belief system. I saw her for a while, but my breathing was still a problem. She said she couldn't help me any more, but she refered me to Dr. Kruger and the supplement lady in Ogden. I've learned so much from Dr. Kruger and I feel like he was also very helpful for Seth, but it didn't fix my breathing issues. The supplement lady was interesting and her supplements probably did help me, but they didn't fix my issues either. Along the way I had a priesthood blessing for my hands and they haven't completely healed, but they aren't nearly as bad as they used to be. Now my hands get more stiff and weak at night, which is still annoying but it doesn't generally wake me up at least.
I've studied a ton of nutrition and health websites and books. I feel like I'm searching for truth because it's become hidden over time. The standard american diet and the regular health care system does not lead to health the way our Heavenly Father intended, I believe. I've cut meat and dairy out of our diets at home for the most part. We eat many more fruits and vegetables than we used to. I go to the temple weekly and fast on many of those days. I've also really studied and applied Elder Nelson's talk from April 2017 about accessing the power of Christ. I've felt I need access to that power in order to find healing.
This fall I found a functional doctor who did more medical tests on me and found that I have active Epstein-Barr, Lyme and Lyme coinfection viruses and all of my symptoms can be a result of those viruses in my body. At the same time I was led again to Cynthia Sumner and her whole healing program. She teaches about the power of plants and our mind in healing our bodies. I've found a lot of healing through her program. I've found that when I eat raw for at least 2 meals a day that my symptoms are decreased. I breathe better and I sleep better.
temple what to do for viruses- mind as biomachine, meditate on Savior's love.
switch flipped with 7 allergens, will be similar when I figure out health. consequences of lack of sleep taken away, not lack of sleep.
Sunday, October 22, 2017
October 22, 2017
Life has been busy! We just finished the first quarter of school. I can't believe that much time has gone by! Rachel made the HS volleyball team! It's been so great for her. We've been so happy about it. Her games are fun to watch, she has a great coach and she loves to belong to a team and be friends with girls she probably wouldn't have otherwise. I encouraged her to try out because I wished I would have done that in high school, so I was pretty nervous for her. I'm so glad it worked out! School was a big adjustment for her because long volleyball practices and seminary started at the same time, but she's done awesome!
Danny got straight A's the first quarter! It's a miracle! Ha! He has struggled since he started middle school with his grades. Mostly because of lack of trying. But we told him he won't drive if he doesn't have at least a 3.5 and he'll get a better car if he gets a 4.0. That was the ticket! He switched his whole perspective and work ethic with school and has been doing great!
Aaron has been adjusting great to middle school. He works hard and has lots of great friends. He is playing the Trumpet in band and doing great at it.
Seth and Ruby have great teachers and have made good friends and are doing well.
Bob and I are taking the Personal Finance class with the new self reliance program. We absolutely love it! We were starting to feel a little under water and out of control with our finances. And this has completely flipped us around. I've always had a good budget, I just don't follow it. I go over budget almost every month and I trade money around to different categories all the time to make it work. I learned both of these are definitely not in line with the principle of budgeting. They talked about figuring out the financial blessings we want and then making sure we follow the principles that are associated with those blessings. That was such a great way to look at it. Some of the blessings we would like help with are being able to buy a car for the kids when Danny is 16 and being able to take our family to Japan. Last week we learned about getting out of debt. I've never really worried about that much because the only debt we have is our house. But while we were doing the lesson I really felt impressed that we should work on paying off that debt faster. I knew that in my finite mind it didn't make that much sense, but I do have a testimony of the power of obedience. So when we came home that night and were talking and thinking about it, the phrase "prove me now herewith" came strongly to my mind. It was so exciting. I know He was telling me to be obedient to this principle and he would prove to me that he would open up blessings to our family in ways that didn't seem possible with my limited view of the future. Bob and I created a plan to work on paying the mortgage off faster. I know we will be blessed as we do.
I have been having such amazing strengthening and tutoring lessons from the Spirit in the last few month. Mostly because of my health issues. I need to write about it more, but we have home teachers coming soon. So I'm putting this in here to remind me to write about it next time.
Danny got straight A's the first quarter! It's a miracle! Ha! He has struggled since he started middle school with his grades. Mostly because of lack of trying. But we told him he won't drive if he doesn't have at least a 3.5 and he'll get a better car if he gets a 4.0. That was the ticket! He switched his whole perspective and work ethic with school and has been doing great!
Aaron has been adjusting great to middle school. He works hard and has lots of great friends. He is playing the Trumpet in band and doing great at it.
Seth and Ruby have great teachers and have made good friends and are doing well.
Bob and I are taking the Personal Finance class with the new self reliance program. We absolutely love it! We were starting to feel a little under water and out of control with our finances. And this has completely flipped us around. I've always had a good budget, I just don't follow it. I go over budget almost every month and I trade money around to different categories all the time to make it work. I learned both of these are definitely not in line with the principle of budgeting. They talked about figuring out the financial blessings we want and then making sure we follow the principles that are associated with those blessings. That was such a great way to look at it. Some of the blessings we would like help with are being able to buy a car for the kids when Danny is 16 and being able to take our family to Japan. Last week we learned about getting out of debt. I've never really worried about that much because the only debt we have is our house. But while we were doing the lesson I really felt impressed that we should work on paying off that debt faster. I knew that in my finite mind it didn't make that much sense, but I do have a testimony of the power of obedience. So when we came home that night and were talking and thinking about it, the phrase "prove me now herewith" came strongly to my mind. It was so exciting. I know He was telling me to be obedient to this principle and he would prove to me that he would open up blessings to our family in ways that didn't seem possible with my limited view of the future. Bob and I created a plan to work on paying the mortgage off faster. I know we will be blessed as we do.
I have been having such amazing strengthening and tutoring lessons from the Spirit in the last few month. Mostly because of my health issues. I need to write about it more, but we have home teachers coming soon. So I'm putting this in here to remind me to write about it next time.
Sunday, August 13, 2017
August 13, 2017
School starts tomorrow. I'm excited for a routine again and for my house to stay clean during the day. They all seem excited to be starting school. I think I have a good carpool. I'm excited to get some good things done during the day. I just need to work on being more disciplined with my time.
I've felt a little anxious about this school year and what kind of work I need to do. I just don't really know what I want to do for work. I have a few ideas like websites, photography, maybe some thing with health. I also want to help at the school and go to the temple and be available to help people and be a deliberate mom. I was feeling worried about what I would choose or what the Lord wanted me to choose. But then I felt like it's ok not to know. So my plan is to have a big list of things I want to accomplish and some of those will be looking for website clients and practicing with my camera or home projects and I'll pray about it and listen and then plan my day or my week. Hopefully I'll have a least some success in making some money to help pay for teenage drivers and trips, etc.
I don't know if the gluten thing is helping Seth. Bob took him to Adam Adair's homecoming yesterday and he ate a bunch of donuts. We were 12 days in. But I also wasn't being super strict with it, like I forgot to ask the deacons to bring him the gluten free bread for sacrament. And I didn't buy gluten free oats and he ate plenty of those. We're pretty good at small changes over time, but cold turkey changes are hard for us.
I've felt a little anxious about this school year and what kind of work I need to do. I just don't really know what I want to do for work. I have a few ideas like websites, photography, maybe some thing with health. I also want to help at the school and go to the temple and be available to help people and be a deliberate mom. I was feeling worried about what I would choose or what the Lord wanted me to choose. But then I felt like it's ok not to know. So my plan is to have a big list of things I want to accomplish and some of those will be looking for website clients and practicing with my camera or home projects and I'll pray about it and listen and then plan my day or my week. Hopefully I'll have a least some success in making some money to help pay for teenage drivers and trips, etc.
I don't know if the gluten thing is helping Seth. Bob took him to Adam Adair's homecoming yesterday and he ate a bunch of donuts. We were 12 days in. But I also wasn't being super strict with it, like I forgot to ask the deacons to bring him the gluten free bread for sacrament. And I didn't buy gluten free oats and he ate plenty of those. We're pretty good at small changes over time, but cold turkey changes are hard for us.
Sunday, August 6, 2017
August 6, 2017
EFY went well. Rachel had a wonderful time and talked about the Spirit she felt and got to go to her first dance. She called me every night. Danny had a chip on his shoulder all week and before he left. I never found out exactly what his problem was. He just seems like he doesn't want to do anything that I think is a good idea sometimes. He barely responded to my texts for 2 days and then he stopped all together. When he got home he was in just as grumpy as ever and acted like I was judging him. I just tried to love him and ignore his bad attitude and ask him about the week. And by the end of that day he was nice again and he's been nice since then. While the bigs were gone, we went to see a movie and we went to the water slides.
Danny was home for a couple days and then he left to drive to Texas with Blake's family. They're having a good time there and he will fly home in a few days. Rachel has started intramural volleyball at the school to get ready for tryouts when school starts. We only have one week now until the first day of school. I think we're about ready. We have the carpool figured out and uniforms purchased. We just need to get a few more school supplies.
Seth and I started doing gluten-free on Aug. 1. I want to see if going off gluten will help his allergies and eczema and attention. I am probably more like "low gluten" because I'm not as good at following it. And I know there are lots of hidden places they put gluten so hopefully we are getting most of it out. We've still been doing regular oats, but now I'm thinking I should buy gluten free oats to make sure we're getting it out. We'll see. Recently several sources I really like for learning about nutrition and that make a lot of sense with the word of wisdom say that gluten isn't really good for anyone. I'm torn with that one because that's what got me going on studying the word of wisdom in the first place. There is a lot of research that says gluten does a lot of harm. And they probably have changed wheat some since the word of wisdom was given and we probably eat more of it than was intended. But I still feel a confused about it. So I keep praying and thinking about it.
My breathing and sleep continue to improve. My sleep recently made a huge jump. I got a sleep mask to try to help with my dry eyes and that combined with whatever else I'd been doing have helped me to sleep though the night so much better! It used to feel like the night was a little bit of an ordeal. Where I would try so hard to fall asleep and then I'd wake up wide awake who knows how many times in the night and have to start the process over. But now it's finally back to how it should be where I go to sleep and I might wake up in the night, but it's just for a minute and I easily fall back asleep. It feels so wonderful.
Danny was home for a couple days and then he left to drive to Texas with Blake's family. They're having a good time there and he will fly home in a few days. Rachel has started intramural volleyball at the school to get ready for tryouts when school starts. We only have one week now until the first day of school. I think we're about ready. We have the carpool figured out and uniforms purchased. We just need to get a few more school supplies.
Seth and I started doing gluten-free on Aug. 1. I want to see if going off gluten will help his allergies and eczema and attention. I am probably more like "low gluten" because I'm not as good at following it. And I know there are lots of hidden places they put gluten so hopefully we are getting most of it out. We've still been doing regular oats, but now I'm thinking I should buy gluten free oats to make sure we're getting it out. We'll see. Recently several sources I really like for learning about nutrition and that make a lot of sense with the word of wisdom say that gluten isn't really good for anyone. I'm torn with that one because that's what got me going on studying the word of wisdom in the first place. There is a lot of research that says gluten does a lot of harm. And they probably have changed wheat some since the word of wisdom was given and we probably eat more of it than was intended. But I still feel a confused about it. So I keep praying and thinking about it.
My breathing and sleep continue to improve. My sleep recently made a huge jump. I got a sleep mask to try to help with my dry eyes and that combined with whatever else I'd been doing have helped me to sleep though the night so much better! It used to feel like the night was a little bit of an ordeal. Where I would try so hard to fall asleep and then I'd wake up wide awake who knows how many times in the night and have to start the process over. But now it's finally back to how it should be where I go to sleep and I might wake up in the night, but it's just for a minute and I easily fall back asleep. It feels so wonderful.
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